It's time for a bit of getting real. People often ask me if I like my job. Of course I do, but let's be real here. There is a lot of stuff that happens that makes it hard at times. It makes me feel vulnerable, even attacked. I thought I'd share, because I'm human and need the outlet.
Using our home as a business has it's faults. We have to dedicate part of our personal space to the business. I have to post business papers on my wall. That's not very homey. I have to be ready for my licensor to invade my space at any moment. I can't just leave my laundry pile out in the open. Can you believe I have had people say to me, "I hate that your house is so clean." I think every time someone says that to me a bit of my soul cries! Don't they understand that I have to keep this house clean because it represents me as a business woman? I don't feel it's fair to feel attacked. It brings me joy to provide a clean space for my family. I don't know why some people feel so threatened by that. I get a lot of good comments about it, too. While that is uplifting, my human nature can't seem to let go of the negative comments. I'm working on it. ☺
The best part about my job is the fun I have with these kids. It feels good to try my best (and trust me- I have bad days just like everyone else) to provide a safe and happy place for these kids while they are missing their parents. I am not a perfect childcare provider, but I do feel that this is what God has provided for me to do, and I love doing it.
The WORST part of this job is that I am just plain lonely. A lot. I don't get to go to a workplace filled with other adults from all walks of life and have meaningful conversations. It's hard to make friends. I think it's even harder when friends want me to be their childcare provider. I then become a business associate. That is the hardest part. I need some close confidants in my life and now that my handsome hubby is no longer working with me I find myself having a pity party. Just keeping it real!
Maybe I'm moody? LOL
1Thessalonians 5:18 "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
♥♥♥Happy Thursday!♥♥♥
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